I miss Jesus


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I think there are some really unfortunate section headings in my Bible.  One example is John 13-14. 
The scene:  The Last Supper
Importance:  Redefinition of the Passover feast in light of Jesus’ mission and impending death.
I call these “unfortunate section headings” because they disrupt the flow of some really important things Jesus is saying.  I’m going to rewrite this section as one continuous piece (with liberal use of paraphrasing).
Jesus: Guys, I’m only going to be with you a little bit longer.  I’m taking off and, just as I told everyone else, y’all will look for me, but won’t find me.  So, remember this:  love one another.  Just like I loved you, love one another.  People will see this and know that you follow me.
Pete: sir, where are you going?
Jesus: Where I’m going, you can’t follow right now, but you can follow me later.
Pete: Why not?  I’d give my life to follow you!
Jesus:  Really?  Before morning, you are going to tell people 3 times that you don’t even know me.
Jesus: Guys, don’t worry.  Trust God and trust me.  I’m going to my Father’s house to prepare a place for you.  You can’t follow now, but I’m coming back to so you can be with me again.  Besides, y’all know the way to where I’m going.
Tom: Really? We don’t even know where you are going, so how do we know how to get there?
Jesus: I’m the way, I’m the truth, and I’m the life.  No one can come to the Father except through me.  If you knew me, then you’d know the Father as well; you do know me and so you know the Father.
Phil: Just show us the Father and that’s good for us (I think the implied words are “you don’t have to go”)!
Jesus:  Don’t you get it?  You’ve seen the Father because you’ve seen me.  My words are from the Father (12:47-50); my miracles are from the Father (10:25-30); The Father and I are ONE (5:19-23)!
Reading these sections, I kinda feel the loss of a friend here.  Peter, Thomas, and Philip know Jesus is leaving.  The “why” and “where” is not readily apparent to them right now.  I can empathize with their friendship and loyalty.  I don’t know how to describe it, but I can feel their confusion.  And to be honest, the rest of Jesus’ words aren’t the most comforting to me.  I understand and believe why Jesus had to leave and go to the cross.  But I don’t like it.  I know the Holy Spirit [the Comforter] is here and that I am in the Father’s hand, but this passage makes me miss Jesus.

Feeling like giving up? Persevere, doggone it.

A part of me wants to give up on the things I’m doing and move on to the next stage of life.  It’s a very small part and the other 96% of Joel Morgan won’t let that part win.  I find that bothersome.  I don’t know why I can’t feel despondent or frustrated or down.  I want to, but I don’t.  Rather, I feel like persevering.  I feel like finishing strong, even if I don’t feel like doing all the work required to persevere.*

Monday morning, I read Job 1:21 in the Bible, which reads:  Naked I came from my mother’s womb, and naked I will depart.  The LORD gave and the LORD has taken away; may the name of the LORD be praised.


I read it to give perspective to me before I interviewed for a job later that morning; I think of it now to remind myself to persevere.  No, I’m not Job.  Writing a thesis is not the same as losing one’s entire family and fortune.  But it’s a lesson that through all of life, good or bad, boring or exciting, may the name of the LORD be praised.  So, I’m going to Colossians 3:23 for the rest of this week and work hard.

Question/Answer
What’s a struggle to persevere in right now?  Work, school, play?  Me – writing my thesis.

*I used “I” eight times in that paragraph.  I apologize.

A Weekend in Review

I like what Chris Julian has done with his blog by posting pictures of events or interesting sights from Sao Paulo.  I’m going to steal that idea for Monday posts.

1.  Football with Matt Ystad.  It was the Vikings and it was Preseason, but it was FOOTBALL

2.  I ran on Sunday morning for the first time in months.  Woof.

3.  Skyping with Renato Betim, a good friend and brother from Sao Paulo.  Notice the matching glasses.

4.  Jacob’s Well.  I LOVE my family here and I love playing music with this group.

5.  Romey and Peter!  2 of our 3 kids at JW!  They are an energetic handful. 

Back at it…

If I were worried about page views, then I would’ve been more consistent with this over the last two weeks.  But as it stands, life comes first.

Highlights of the last two weeks…

  • Receiving my visa for travel to Brazil the day before leaving.  Definitely a lesson in faith and patience.
  • Talking to college students in Sao Paolo  
  • Giving free hugs on Av. Paulista two Monday nights ago
  • Good food in Brazil
    • Rice and beans – so simple, yet so very delicious
  • Good friends in Brazil
    • Renato, Chris and Melody and Michael and Rachel Julian, etc
  • Worshipping with Brazilians in Portuguese.  That was super cool.
  • Seeing how a missionary lives and works
  • Seeing my Dad and brother in Minneapolis
Lowlights…
  • Leaving Sao Paolo.  I didn’t feel finished.
On a organizational note, I have a few topics that I’ve wanted to study but haven’t had the motivation to do.  These include suffering and marriage/celibacy.  I think that I will also write up thoughts and questions I have/hear as I read through John with my friend, M.  
Questions for the faithful readers…
  1. How have you seen God move in the past two weeks?
  2. What conversations have you had (on faith or otherwise) that have made you think past the initial conversation?
  3. Favorite ice cream?